Yesterday in Sacrament Meeting, a member of our bishopric spoke about taking the time to quiet our worlds down and to turn everything off and to just listen. I have an AMAZING friend, who I look up to so much, named Kieran. She blogged a few days ago about how she has really been focusing on listening to the Spirit better. This talk which Brother Hess gave really made me start thinking about that. I do not take time like I should to slow down, turn everything off, and just listen in the quiet to the whisperings of the Spirit.
Today had its moments. Braxton fell out of the car onto his arm. Rough. Colton called me from Dianne's this morning to tell me he was "Suh-Weeping Mom!" I had NO CLUE he was going over there. Frustrating/embarrassing. Jackson did not agree with my mommy logic and rolled his eyes at me and went downstairs to have time away from me. Sad. Kaydon informed me on a few occasions that this was the worst day of his life. Heart-breaking. An argument with a loved one that is seemingly never-ending. Sad/Frustrating/Heartbreaking/Agonizing.
I felt myself giving in to it all and allowing myself to get angry and controlling and loud. Then, thankfully, my sweet friend Kieran and the talk given by Brother Hess came into my mind. I sat on my bed, turned the computer and my cell phone off, pulled out my scriptures and READ...in the quiet. Then I got on my knees and talked REALLY LOUD to Heavenly Father. I felt better. I felt uplifted. I felt re-assured. I felt prepared for the next few hours.
I am so grateful for good examples who surround me and teach me and allow me to learn...at my pace..
I loved having Colton help me sweep. I have no problem ignoring child labor laws!!heehee
ReplyDeleteThis was a really great post Heidi. I too enjoyed Matt's talk on Sunday. Sometimes it's hard for me to slow down enough and to turn everything off so that I can hear my thoughts. I'm sure it's because if I were ever left alone with my own thoughts I might be very frightened. However, you have inspired me to take little snippits of time during the day to be inspired, and to listen, and to build my testimony. So I can be a better person and a better mom. So thank you Heidi... you are the best! I really mean that!
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