Courage

(My latest gift from KH)
Tonight, when I got home, there was a package for me. It was from KH. It was my newest item in my KH collection (which runs throughout my home). She amazes me. I opened her card and read it. Then, I cried. She thanked ME for letting HER love me. She is a gift. She told me that "courage" is her theme for this year. I got in the tub and thought about courage. Here is what courage is to me, in my life right now:
1. Courage is allowing ourselves to be loved when love didn't work out the first time.
2. Courage is allowing ourselves to feel.
3. Courage is saying we're sorry and meaning it.
4. Courage is trying again, no matter how many times we fail.
5. Courage is asking for help.
6. Courage is admitting we were wrong.
7. Courage is standing up for something, even if we stand alone.
8. Courage is saying "no" especially when it would have been easier to say "yes."
9. Courage is putting one foot in front of the other, even if we have no where to go.
10. Courage is getting up in the morning, because you never know what the tide will blow in.

** I got to see my gym girls tonight. I teared up as soon as I turned my back to them. It's like hope for a new day when I see them... when they smile at me and want to hug me... when they make me laugh about nothing.
** I read a text that Jeremy sent his buddy last week. He didn't know I read it. He talked about wanting to skip out on softball last week so that he could take care of me, and how he hated to see me in pain. It made my heart skip a few beats.
** I went to work today. A little too long, but I did it. I succeeded. I made it. I did some therapy tonight. The muscle spasms have started. But, I will get through them.
** I kissed my kids good night tonight. I am such a lucky girl!!