In a funk!

I have been in a major funk this week. I have been tired and achey, unmotivated, teary, moody, lazy... so what else is new?! I have gotten up every day, got the kids to school and me to work. Gone home, done homework with the kids, made dinner, vacuumed, laundered, made lunches... but just going through the motions, really. I just can't seem to get out of this groove.

Today, though, I am inspired. And motivated, kind of.

First, WALKING. I have always been a walker! Ask my mom... from the time I was young, if something was bothering me, I would walk and walk and walk... I would go as far away from my home as possible... just walking. And thinking. And talking to myself. Just me, myself and I... walking. I haven't been to the gym for a long time. When I do go, it's sporadic. Tonight, I told Jer that he and the kids can swim, and I am going to walk and walk and walk, as far as I can (on the treadmill). I can't wait. Just me, myself and I... walking. Thinking. Talking to myself.

Second, GOALS. I have not accomplished one of my New Year's Resolutions. We have not read scriptures once as a family. I have only read them once by myself. We have not done family prayer once. I am crying as I write this, mostly because I am embarrassed to tell all of you perfect people this. I am failing my kids and I feel awful. They don't believe that the scriptures are important to me because I don't show them by example. They don't believe that family prayer is important because we don't do it. I WILL do better, and I will report our progress.

Third, MORE GOALS! I have this great friend, who has been my friend for a loooooong time, Becky. Love ya Beck! She is doing a blog everyday about things that she is taking care of around her house. She has always been the greatest wife, mom and housekeeper I know. But apparently she thinks she needs to do more. Kind of dislike her for that. Anywho, she has inspired me. I work outside the home, and so I need to be realistic. I can't have a project everyday, but I am going to have one once a week. I made a little list of things that need to be done, or that I WANT to have done. I am going to learn how to use the tools and I am going to do it! It has me excited.

Fourth, ME! I have another great friend I will call Sippi, and another one I will call Birdie and another one I will call Granny. I am surrounded by amazing people, who love me for some strange reason. They make comments and they tell stories and they do things that all do one thing- remind me that I am loved and that I am known by our Father in Heaven. If other people think it's important to pray for me, maybe I should think that's important too. If other people think it's important to give service to my family, maybe I should think it's important to give service to my family and others too. I need to remember that I am better than I think I am. Hard.. oh so hard to do. But I can.